i think i haven't been posting because as long as i didn't post, i wouldn't have to deal with this. My grandpa may be dying. Growing up, he's the only family member for whom i felt any admiration. i like him sooo much. And i'm not even there to see him every week anymore, you know? He's only here a little more time and i'm wasting it. i'm missing my chance to be with him. What do i do, world? How can i give away my grandpa?